Well I've been gone awhile, and it looks like I've lost probably all, if I had any to begin with, readers.

Anyway, I just finished reading the last part of His Dark Materials. The Amber Spyglass. If you ever have the chance to read the trilogy, take it. The books are amazing, and powerful ending.

Anyway, I've been feeling the same lately, but recently. I've found a word for the feeling. Apathy. It feels like a cold iron hand reaching into your chest and trying to rip out your heart and soul, but your ribs hold it back -all the while feeling like they're going to burst. I heard from a person much wiser than me, that to cure apathy, one must find themselves. It sounds easy, but it's not. It seems that each day I find something new, but not what I'm looking for. The chilling thing, is what I've learned about people. I've seen them, but now, it's like I actually see them. I see the ones that have found themselves, and the ones that have searched their intire lives and haven't found it. That's what scares me, I don't want to grow up feeling like I do. Always feeling half full.

Finnaly, I guess I'm short of some big closing this time. I'm off to find myself; I hope I don't have to wander too far, but I will if I must. Well, untill next time, later.

Ouch, haven't posted in forever! Anyway I got World of Warcraft for Xmas, and I'm addicted. XD I can't help that the games owns.

There's a shoot the duck, get a free iPOD add above what I'm writing. Why am I mentioning this? I don't know. I'm staying up all day today so I can fall asleep tonight.

Anyway, Winter Break was great, but now it's all over, and we all grieve, because it really sucks that it's over. Now I have to go to school again, and waist my time doing something productive, when I could be waisting my time doing nothing. Drag eh?

Anyway for Xmas I got two Burne Hogarth books as well as WoW, so nice. I need to learn to draw better. I got a hoody, and a shirt as well.

Anyway Pink Fairy is leaving the internet, so everyone be sad! Pink was cool. Who is Pink? An artist who can't put up with any more harrassment. We'll miss you!

You know, I sometimes get asked, whats wrong? Especially by my dad, but the thing is, I don't know what's wrong. If I knew what was wrong, I would fix it.

"Got milk? Aaahahahahahahah"

Bryon

I almost feel like I'm posting on the same Sunday. Anyway, because of a screwup, progress reports don't go out, untill Wensday.

Anyway holiday season is nearing full force, as house after house puts up the lights, and trees are bought from lots dotting the city. I don't know if this is a bad thing, or a good thing to tell the truth.

Has it ever ashamed any or you readers, when other people gloat about you? I couldn't stand hearing my dad say I'm smart, and had to go outside with my head down. I just don't like that, people know, they don't need him to remind them!

Anyway this is the first year I get to praticipate in our family Xmas thing. I drew the name of my cousin as the one I get a gift for. I'm half tempted to just give him money since I don't know what he likes, besides guitars. He loves those.

www.somethingawful.com

Be warned, the link above has adult content, and I can assure you, that it will offend somebody. Don't worry about the review things, all reviews posted here, are negative ones about things we hate. His review on The Sims 2, made me want to buy it! He made an evil romancer who lived in a 5 story tower of evil. On the 5th floor, its an open roof temple to evil. Complete with the graves of people who died of starvation in the "room," a nice way of saying a concrete square with an observation window, so he can paint them. This is funny, because no one seems to notice, and he has parties all the time.

Another game I want to try from the list of reviews he made, is Everquest. He made a list of how to be annoying, and a newbies guide. The guide featured a hundred and one ways to be an ass. Doing things like leading monsters that are about to kill you to someone meditating so it kills them too, or asking a powerful player to join you 50 times, and if he refuses, dual him for being a jerk.

Anyway, quote of the week.

"Xbox live is like a pile of defective genes spread across the interweb. It's almost like it is like this, so space aliens can teach other space aliens who are curious about Earth, to not be so curious about Earth"

-The Game Geezer

http://www.koreus.com/files/200408/radiohead_creep.html

That's what I'm watching. Click the link, that video is amazing!

But anyway, last day of Thanksgiving Break, damn.  I hate that school of mine, I think the guy in charge was a wardon at a prison somewhere, since that's how it's run. All these stupid rules for our "safety." Come on, we're in the middle of Georgia, who's gona bring a gun to school? This isn't Atlanta.

Anyway, gona start writing again. I've been working on something for website I go to, but that's been on and off for a while now.

My Break was ok the first two days, but my step counsin had to stay over, and she's on one of those see food diets. She eats what ever she sees. I had to hide my cokes. My sister visited up untill Friday, which is ok, she's cool. Apprantly she's been to jail since I last saw her. One was because of a raid on her house she shares with two roommates. Anyway I got two Thanksgiving dinners one at my step moms mother's house, and the other one at my Aunt's house. Too bad my grandma didn't make any of her red velvet cake, those are the best! I think she must be mad since my dad never takes us to visit. Anyway the weekend was spend how I normally spend it. Laying around the house with nothing to do. That's the thing about being out in the country, there's nothing to do!

Tomorrow is a day that will be remembered in imfamy to me; progress reports go out, and I'm screwed. Well tune in next week same time to those that actually read this.

So I've downloaded the new version of A Tale in the Desert. Some reason beyond me, I love this game. Anyway, a comic I look at Dominic Deegan, now updates everyday of the week. Huzzah. It's hard to adjust to, I'm so used to only seeing it on the weekdays. Can you believe Mookie raised over $3000 dollars from donations for this? Wow, I'm gona start a fund raiser. The Care About Socky Harmony(C.A.S.H.) >.> <.< Donate to Socky, and you'll save a child in Zambia or something.

Anyway, all cheer for the Pilgrims, for if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't get 3 days off next week. Lets not forget Turkey, and all that other good food. I can taste it already. o____o

Oh no, I forgot my what am I thankful for letter. I don't know what I'm thankful for. I mean sure I can say I'm thankful for life, but how do we know being dead isn't a barrel of monkies? I could say I'm thankful for my parents, but how do I know my mom couldn't just have easily married some rich dude? Yeah, I'm a guy that has never sat down and thought about counting my blessings. >.>

I have a theory. That school teachers are out to get me. I mean, why is it that grades always go out, when I'm at my lowest? What other possible reason could there be? I mean, the guy that says when grades go out, must be some sort of frickin' ninja. Always like, oh my, he didn't get his work done, time for progress reports!

But enough of my senseless ramblings! Time for the quote of the post.

"Find sense in the senseless and you will find wisdom."

-Meh! :j